Flying ain't so bad

Isaiah 30:41 "but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint."

I've always wished I could fly.  I mean what kid hasn't tried to jump off their dresser to see if maybe (just maybe), they had super powers and they could fly?  Ok, maybe you didn't, but I did.  Turns out I CANNOT fly and I'm thankful my dresser wasn't too high.  

But there is something about flying that is so cool, so free, so amazing!!!  Just soaring.  Turns out my wishes came true, only in a better way than I had imagine as a child standing on top of her dresser.  I FLEW my friends!!!!  Off course I was a passenger, but I got a little ride on the wings on the Almighty.  I boarded the most amazing flight I have ever been on and went up to new heights, all the while my physical body hit an "all time low".  As you might have heard, I was sick, and very much so.  I was so sick I required help to do all the basic things.  I had to stay in bed and get better.  I say "had to", as if I would have been able to get out...  

If you are anything like me, that's about the toughest thing ever.  I am a pretty energetic and lively person.  I don't really do well with idleness.  I thrive on business, I define myself with what I accomplish.  I find purpose in doing things I can quantify and it's so very hard for me to sit still.  In fact I don't do still.  Except this time I had to, because I had nothing else left in me.  That's when He flew in, picked me up on His wings, and gave me a ride.  And I soared.  I felt more joy, more peace and more strength then when I was healthy.  My spirit was at peace (most of the time), my Savior was holding me tight, and there was nothing for me to do.  Just let Him take me for a ride!!!  

I don't think I really remember a time where nothing was expected of me, but this time there was NO expectation.  Except getting better and taking like 100 pills.  No one expected me to cook, clean, walk, look a certain way,...  Oh and the people of God, they rallied, formed an army around our family and prayed!  And cooked!  And cleaned!  All the while I soared.  

And did my hair!!!

And I thanked my Almighty pilot, my Comforter, my Everything.  Because for a while I hardly had any earthly concerns and just soared.  Just waited on Him who is Good.  I had no strength to read His Word yet He made His words alive in my heart.  Isn't He wonderful???  He was and is my everything.

When I was weak, He was strong.  And that helped me to never lose heart (at least not too often)!! Maybe outwardly I was sick, yet inwardly I was being renewed day by day for eternal glory that far outweighs the sickness. I still refuse to look with human eyes at this experience, but instead let us fix our eyes on what is unseen and eternal. This was far more a spiritual battle than physical.  When so many people unite and pray for someone, things are going to happen.  And I felt the prayers, so much so that praises where always on my lips in a way I have never experienced.  I could hardly sleep from excitement the night NCF held a prayer meeting for me!!!  Did I miraculously get new lungs?  No.  Yes I was disappointed (this is me being brutally honest), but I'm learning to trust God and to wait on Him.  And I am still waiting for the lungs :)

I found  laughter in what could have been complete sorrow.  I found joy in the darkness of night.  And that's when I realized joy is much more spiritual than we think.  Joy is a choice, joy is a mindset, joy is what we must claim: TODAY.  Because He won.  Off course He won many years ago so knowing the outcome is helpful!  He is the winner and we're on His team.  Yeah for winning!!!  Let's start the celebration TODAY, why wait for heaven?

Joyfully,

Marie-Eve