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She was completely unapologetic. I had to sit on my hands with the question burning up in my throat, trying to focus on what she was saying. She was speaking in Xhosa, which makes it 100% more difficult for me to follow! She did use hand gestures a lot, so it helped greatly, as she spoke to a fellow staff member (Sam).
One hand waived to the stairs and she made a lot of "BOOM" sounds, making me believe that she had fallen down the stairs and her repeatedly pointing to her sound system, while shouting and flailing her arms, made me believe that someone had possibly attempted to rob her recently. Having been here over 2 years now, I have stopped assuming that someone is mad just because they are yelling. It did take me a full 2 years (and even now and then) to realize that Xhosa people just like talking very loud and even though they sound mad, they rarely are. And this woman was proper-yelling!
All in all, I was only guessing, and now hearing the word "surgery" and perhaps "infection", I was gathering enough to know that this woman needed prayers. I first thanked the Lord that Xhosa is sprinkled with English-like words that help me follow along in these types of situations, but also thanked Him that He knew her needs more than any of us ever could!
And as the Xhosa staff listened and ministered to her, I quietly prayed and cried out to God on behalf of this woman and her family. She was an important woman in the community, I found out, while she dashed out of her home to go get her neighbor lady who had a terrible illness. She described it as something similar to tuberculosis.
And then it happened. Her neighbor was also sporting the same facial mask as her. I had to double bite my tongue again and well...
Let me completely honest, as I have grown accustomed to be with you, when I say that in that moment I also prayed for my own safety and physical strength against this terrible disease. I felt guilty for my own selfish reaction, although very human, and resumed my prayers for this frail lady. As I prayed and sensed an overwhelming darkness, I feared her ailment was possibly more spiritual than physical and in my soul I began to pray and intercede on her behalf.
I have often prayed for God to give me wisdom, to give me eyes that see what He sees. For Him to give me a heart like His. Yet for some reason, every-time a moment like this happens, where I feel like the Father is showing me glimpses into a person's soul, showing me how He sees this person, somehow I'm always surprised! Did I not just pray and ask for that very thing? Then why, oh why, am I surprised that my Father is answering by showing me these things and allowing me to feel such deep emotions and compassion?
Our Heavenly Father is so good and so compassionate, and loves deeply and freely. He lavishes His love on us. And when I'm overcome with a flood of love for a complete stranger, I know it's from my Father in Heaven. He gives me words that I could never know to speak in such foreign situation. He gives me insight that I wouldn't have on my own. As a girl from a far away land, I shouldn't dare speak up yet He empowers me. He makes me bold. He speaks through me when I choose to completely abandon myself to Him and trust Him. I sometimes feel foolish, like I might not be saying the right thing, yet time and time again I see light and understanding from the other person. That can only be from God.
So today I praise Him for the lady who had a strange facial mask on, who brought her sick friend over [to perhaps do another facial?]. For I have seen the Lord work in mysterious ways and perhaps it was more to minister to my soul than to theirs, but I doubt it. He is so good.
Oh, and it turns out it wasn't a face mask. It was... a mix of white clay and Umemezi, that Xhosa women [especially older women from the Eastern Cape], apply to their faces to protect them from sunburns and harsh weather. It is also used a "makeup" and regarded as a symbol of beauty by the women. Now since our students are younger, I wasn't familiar with this practice, but now I know!
I'm not only seeing new things, but with the Lord's help, I believe that He allows me to see people differently.
